Your Feelings

It's common to feel stressed and overwhelmed at this time. Like your loved one, you may feel angry, sad, or worried. Try to share your feelings with others who can help you. It can help to talk about how you feel. You could even talk to a counselor or social worker.

Understanding your feelings

You probably have many feelings as you take care of your loved one. There is no right way for you to feel. Each person is different.

The first step to understanding your feelings is to know that they're normal. Give yourself some time to think through them. Some feelings that may come and go are:

• Sadness. It's okay to feel sad. But if it lasts for more than 2 weeks, and it keeps you from doing what you need to do, you may be depressed.
  
  
• Anger. You may be angry at yourself or family members. You may be angry at the person you're caring for. Or you may be angry that your loved one has cancer. Sometimes anger comes from fear, panic, or stress.
  
  If you are angry, try to think of what makes you feel this way. Knowing the cause may help.
  
  
• Grief. You may be feeling a loss of what you value most. This may be your loved one's health. Or it may be the loss of the day-to-day life you had before the cancer was found. Let yourself grieve these losses.
  
  
• Guilt. Feeling guilty is common, too. You may think you aren't helping enough. Or you may feel guilty that you are healthy.
  
  
• Loneliness. You can feel lonely, even with lots of people around you. You may feel that no one understands your problems. You may also be spending less time with others.

What may help

Talk with someone if your feelings get in the way of daily life. Maybe you have a family member, friend, priest, pastor, or spiritual leader to talk to. Your doctor may also be able to help.

Here are some other things that may help you:

• Know that we all make mistakes whenever we have a lot on our minds. No one is perfect.
  
  
• Cry or express your feelings. You don't have to pretend to be cheerful. It's okay to show that you are sad or upset.
  
  
• Focus on things that are worth your time and energy. Let small things go for now. For example, don't fold clothes if you are tired.
  
  
• Remind yourself that you are doing the best you can.
  
  
• Spend time alone to think about your feelings.

Asking for Help

Many people who were once caregivers say they did too much on their own. Some wished that they had asked for help sooner. Be honest about what you can do. Think about tasks you can give to others. And let go of tasks that aren't so important at this time.

Asking for help also helps your loved one.

Don't be afraid to ask for help. Remember, if you get help for yourself:

• You may stay healthier and have more energy.
• Your loved one may feel less guilty about your help.
• Other helpers may offer time and skills that you don't have.

How can others help you?

People may want to help you but don't know what you need. Here are some things you can ask them to do:

• Help with tasks such as:
  • Cooking
  • Cleaning
  • Shopping
  • Yard Work
  • Childcare
  • Eldercare
  
  
• Talk with you and share your feelings.
  
  
• Help with driving errands such as:
  • Doctor visits
  • Picking up your child
  
  
• Find information you need.
  
  
• Tell others how your loved one is doing.

Know that some people may say, "No."

Some people may not be able to help. There could be one or more reasons such as:

• They may be coping with their own problems.
• They may not have time right now.
• They may not know how to help.
• They may feel uneasy around people who are sick.

Caring for Yourself

Making time for yourself

Taking time for yourself can help you be a better caregiver. That's even more true if you have health problems.

You may want to:

• Find nice things you can do for yourself. Even just a few minutes can help. You could watch TV, call a friend, work on a hobby, or do anything that you enjoy.
  
  
• Be active. Even light exercise such as walking, stretching, or dancing can make you less tired. Yard work, playing with kids or pets, or working in the garden are helpful, too.
  
  
• Find ways to connect with friends. Are there places you can meet others who are close to you? Or can you chat or get support by phone or email?
  
  
• Give yourself more time off. Ask friends or family members to pitch in. Take time to rest.

Do something for yourself each day. It doesn't matter how small it is.Whatever you do, don't neglect yourself.

Caring for your body

You may feel too busy to think about your own health. But taking care of your body gives you strength. Then you can take care of someone else.

Keep up with your own health needs. Try to:

• Go to all your checkups
• Take your medicines
• Eat healthy meals
• Get enough rest
• Exercise
• Make time to relax

Did you have health problems before you became a caregiver? If so, now it's even more important to take care of yourself. Also, adding extra stressors to your life can cause new health problems. Be sure to tell your doctor if you notice any new changes in your body.

Finding meaning during cancer

Cancer causes many caregivers to look at life in new ways. They think about the purpose of life. And they often focus on what they value most.

You and your loved one may question why cancer has come into your lives. You may long for things to be like they were before the disease. But you may also see good things that come out of it, such as it bringing you closer. It's normal to see illness in both good and bad ways.

Cancer can affect one's faith in different ways. Some people turn toward their beliefs. Others turn away from them. It is common to question your faith during this time. For some, looking for meaning is a way to cope.

Some ways to find meaning are:

• Read or listen to uplifting materials.
• Pray or meditate.
• Talk with a priest, pastor, or spiritual leader.
• Go to religious or spiritual services.
• Talk to other caregivers.
• Look at books or brochures for people dealing with cancer. Ask for them at your place of worship. Also, check at libraries for these materials.

Going With Your Loved One to Medical Visits

Before you go

Your loved one may ask you to come to doctor visits. This may be a key role for you. Here are some tips for going to the doctor:

• Know how to get there. Give yourself enough time.
• Write down questions you need to ask. Also write down things you want to tell the doctor.
• Keep a folder of your loved one's health information. Bring this folder to each visit.
• Bring all the medicine bottles with you, or keep a list of the names and doses. Bring this list to each visit.

Talking with the health care provider

• If you don't understand an answer, ask the question in a different way.
• If you need to know more, ask.
• Let your doctor or nurse know what your worries are.
• Before you leave the visit, make sure you know what the next steps are for your loved one's care.
• Take notes. Or ask if you can tape-record the visit.
• Let the doctor know if your loved one has had changes or new symptoms.

Questions to ask the doctor or health care team

• What health records should we bring?
• How can we prepare for treatment?
• How long will the treatment take?
• Can he or she go to and from treatment alone?
• How can I help my loved one feel better during treatment?
• Can I be there during treatment?
• What are the side effects of the treatment?
• After treatment, what do we need to watch for? When should we call you?
• How do we file for insurance? Who can help us with insurance?

Asking about pain

Many caregivers say that they are afraid to ask about pain. They worry that it means the cancer is getting worse. Or some think that pain is normal, and their loved one just has to accept it. This is not true. People who have their pain managed can focus on healing. They can enjoy life more.

The doctor should continue to ask about pain and other side effects. But it's up to you and your loved one to be sure that the doctor knows about any pain your loved one feels. Pain can be managed during treatment. The key is to talk about pain and other symptoms at each visit. Your loved one does not have to suffer.

Don't be afraid to ask for stronger pain medicine. Sometimes larger doses help. These drugs rarely cause people with cancer to get addicted. Instead, they can help your loved one feel better. He or she will be able to focus on day-to-day things instead of being in pain.

Talking With Others

Your partner or spouse

Nearly all caregivers and their partners feel more stress than usual in their relationship. They must deal with many decisions and changes. Some couples find that their bonds get stronger during cancer treatment. Others find they get weaker.

Try to be open about your stress and its causes. You may want to:

• Talk about how each of you feels:
  
  
  • Share how you are each coping.
  • Look at things that are causing you both stress.
  • Talk about choices you can make together.
  • Try to be grateful for each other.
  
  
  
• Make time to focus on things besides cancer.
  
  
• Talk with your partner if you find that your sex life is different than it used to be. There can be many causes:
  
  
  • You or your partner is tired.
  • Your relationship feels strained.
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    • Either of you may not feel good about how your partner looks.
    • You may be afraid you will hurt your partner.
    • The treatment might be affecting your partner's ability to perform. He or she may be in pain or depressed.

You can still be close as a couple in spite of these issues. Staying close is also about sharing feelings and understanding. You can:

• Talk about closeness and your sex life.
• Talk about your hopes for the future.
• Try not to judge each other.
• Protect your time together.
• Be patient and take things slowly.
• Talk to a counselor or your support group.

Other family members and friends

Did your family have problems before cancer? These problems are likely to be more intense now. This is true if you are caring for a spouse, child, or parent. Your new role as a caregiver may cause feelings you didn't expect.

Talk with the people close to you. Try to be open and caring. Ask a counselor to hold a family meeting if needed. During stressful times, ask someone else to update others about how your loved one is doing.

Your kids

Children start to understand the world around them at a very young age. It is important to be honest with them. They need to know the truth about your loved one. Otherwise, they will think the worst. Let them know how you feel, too.

Some tips for talking with kids:

• Tell them about cancer. Let them know that there is nothing they did to cause cancer. And they can't catch it from someone else.
  
  
• Let them know their feelings are okay. Tell them you understand if they are upset, angry, sad, or scared. Remind them that no matter what happens, you will always love them.
  
  
• Tell them the truth with love and hope. Let them know that your loved one is getting good care and that you hope he or she will get well again. But don't try to promise them a good outcome if you aren't sure of one.
  
  
• Listen to them. Ask them how they feel and what they are worried about. If they're young, ask them to draw a picture or play with dolls to show you how they feel.
  
  
• Stay involved. You may be with your loved one who is sick more often right now. Try to spend time with your kids in any way you can. Take them to the store with you or eat meals with them. Ask them about their day. Leave them notes or call them when you can.

Remember

"If there's one thing that's come out of taking care of someone, it's that I've learned what's important really fast. And that's a lesson that I'll carry with me forever." - Jenny

As a caregiver, try to remember to:

• Strike a balance each day.
• Focus on your needs, too.
• Care for yourself while caring for your loved one.
• Make time for resting and relaxing.

Life-changing events often give people the chance to grow. They may help people see what's most important to them. Many say that caring for someone with cancer changed them forever. They used their strengths to support their loved one. And they learned more about themselves along the way.